Should hv told u...

"Life is a tough book to read....i just wish i knew what it said.
it complicates my existance but the questions still remain unfed.
i turn page after page, with my heart burning to ash..
the panic is holding me down, n the emptyness feels dirtier than trash
i make my choices but the consequences hurt
i know i have lost you...and i hate the fact that i made the last effort.
i always knew that what you gave me was not for keeps.
but the child in me held ur hand n nw it sits in a corner and weeps!
i know our existance is not the one tied with romance..
but when i cry i still want u to hold my hands!!
i dont blame u..i noe i pushed it too far
when u held out yor hand to show me the scar..
i was nt being indifferent...jz being scared.
the very existence of my faith had juz been stabbed and left uncared.
i cried so loud on the inside tht evry bone in my body screamed...
i gave in to pain cz i held u too close when i dreamed!!
on the suface i was cold and every word sounded like revenge
but i expected u to c that my happiness was full of pretence.
i wrote it on my skin and put it on display in my eyes
cz speakin it out loud was like scraping my wounds with ice.
it has fallen apart with no means of repair
and we stand on two differnt grounds, right on the edge of dispair.
m scared of moving but m scared o letting things b
cz when i cm bck..i dont wanna b lonely...
u hv been my backbone and my air around for too long
and no replacement or substitute cn eva be that strong!
u hv been my comfort for an eternity i noe...
and i guess m selfish for nt wanting to let go.
but somwhere when i look inside i noe m genuine
and i dont want our best memories to be drenched in sin.
the sin of dicIEt, the sin of ignorance
cz i want our laugh to eco IN TIME and not lose its existence!!!"
THANX FOR BEING THAT ONE PERSON I COULD ALWAYS LOOK UPTO... I MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING REALLY GR8 TO HV HAD A FREIND LIKE U...(WHEN U READ IT..U'LL KNOW ITS 4 U)
BLESS YA
TC.. :)